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December 31, 2012

I'm getting rather emotional thinking about the year in whole. Some people can live a rather steady life and be more than content with what they have. I, on the other hand, attract a roller coaster effect of highs and lows. When it's good, it's great; when it's bad, it's awful. Not that I really intend for it... it just sort of happens.

My blog has been on the back burner quite a bit this year. I haven't posted nearly as much as I should have, which sucks because I love going through my old posts for picture memories. Lots of 2012 went undocumented but at least there's Instagram! Looking back, I can only recall so much of my days - my posts have been so much less personal than years prior and is something I plan on changing in the new year.

It's almost embarrassing that I am choking back tears right now going through my Instagram feed. Every other picture is a shock, like, "whoa, that happened this year?" or "hey, that was only a few months ago!" You see, I've loved and loss so many old and new people in my life. I'm not gonna get into it, but each month cultivated a new mindset for me and each picture serves as a reminder. At this point, I am so emotionally drained, weirdly happy, and surprisingly rediscovering myself. My hair has changed a handful of times; I quit two jobs to get to my dream job now; and I'm finally living in LA. Needless to say, I can't regret anything this year - as poor as some of my judgment calls have been, it has helped me grow so much as a person and gave me courage to do great things I otherwise would have ignored for the sake of being comfortable.
2012 walkthrough:

I emotionally dyed my hair jet black (I hated it and am so glad it faded after a month)
... got extensions from walking the Polyvore runway during NYFW (crazy experience!)
...went to Disneyland as much as I possibly could (probably ended up going 25+ times this year)
... worked on some amazing projects
... crossed off a lot of artists on my show-going-bucket-list 
(Miike Snow, at Coachella but Snoop + Dr. Dre was by far my favorite this year!)  
(Lana del Rey)  
(Blood Orange)  
(The XX) 
highlights not shown.... Theophilus London, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club, Juicy J, Justin Bieber (heh).
... got away on fun small trips  
... graduated with an Economics degree at UCI
... got an apartment and kitten I love so dearly.  
This post probably wasn't as sappy as I made it seem in the first few paragraphs. But each picture is an entity in itself and I can correlate the exact emotion I had taking it. Whether I was in a dark, dark place or euphorically high on life, I can only thank you for your readership and support through it all. 2012 has set up for a bright future for me, and I'm excited to share more of it with you! Till then, hope you all have an amazing and safe NYE.
Hella hearts,

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29 responses:

  1. thanks for such a delightful and personal post, Rachel! I hope you have a wonderful NYE and more Disneyland trips to come in 2013!

  2. Awesome post Rachel! Happy new year!!!


  3. Anonymous

    "Everything I'm not made me everything I am."

    Happy New Year

  4. CANT WAIT FOR A GREAT 2013 ON THATS CHIC! Your instagram pics are awesome and I can see the sappiness in them, don't worry :) I'm kind of sappy too and I am the same way as you with the SUPER happy good days and the SUPER AWFUL bad days. Happy New Year!
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  5. the photo of you and the pup is adorbs. love it.

  6. I think everyone had a lot of ups and downs this year (I definitely did) so congrats on getting through 2012! And thanks for bringing all of us readers along for the ride with you. Can't wait to see what 2013 brings :-) xo

  7. looks like 2012 has been such a ride! hope 2013 will be just as great!

  8. gorgeous! happy new year


  9. Emotions are nothing to feel embarrassed by! I feel connected to my blog in a way I'd never anticipated, and when my content slips in any way, it's upsetting. I still love your blog, and I'm excited to see where you take it!

  10. Truly beautiful post Rachel! Hope new year brings you what you want!


  11. I didn't know you majored in economics! That's awesome :) I am an economics major too, and I love your blog. Can't wait to see more posts.

  12. you are the most adorable, effortlessly chic girl, love your blog! Happy new year!


  13. I hope you have an amazing 2013!

    xo Jennifer

  14. So lovely!! Happy New Year!!

  15. I know how you feel. Experiencing everything intensely is both a blessing and a curse, huh? High highs and really low lows. Makes life interesting though. And at least you looked gorgeous and stylish throughout it all! Happy new year :)

  16. Life is full of ups and downs. Hope you are alright now and see the bright site. Wish you a happy and successful 2013!!!



  17. Happy New Year Rachel!
    I've loved reading your blog for the last couple of years & can't wait to see where 2013 takes you!

  18. adorable!


  19. I look forward to reading some personal posts. You seem very level-headed (not to mention extremely intelligent) and I'm always so intrigued to see what you have to say. Keep moving forward.


  20. You make me smile reading your post. I can see how 2012 was a crazy and life changing year for you. Don't feel pressure to post daily on your blog. It's your blog, you write when you feel inspired and ready to, there's nothing wrong with that. I can't wait to see what 2013 has in store for you.

  21. I've read quite a few round-up of 2012 posts, but this one is my favourite. Keep up the good blogging work! xx

  22. Love the photos and the recap. It's nice that we have instagram to go back to. I did that towards the end of the year, lots of tears and even now I can't go to far back but there are lots of happy moments in there too. Hope this year is amazing for you.

  23. Such a positive, emotional and interesting post. So happy to have discovered your blog in 2012 and cannot wait to see what this year brings!

  24. That picture of your apartment looks straight out of an Anthropologie catalog.

    If your posts do get more personal, we'd love to hear about what you do these days career wise (like that dream job you mentioned!)

    NeNe Monster
    :) nicole

  25. Anonymous

    gorgeous kitten, love your style
    Live has it's ups and downs, if we didn't have the not so great days we wouldn't appreciate the great days, that's what I think anyway

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